HEART AND SOUL

You know, I always hated my father.

It's not even like he did anything to me in specific, outside of trying to contain and control me, I just don't like him for some reason.

He's older than old, he knows I know he's older than old, but for some reason he just won't let go of the past.

I can hear him crying in his office when I stay the night at The Castle, you know.

I want to reach out, and help, but...

I can't.

Or rather, I feel like I'm not allowed to.

He knows I hate him.

It's a well-observed fact that, when people know you hate them, they will often refuse your help.

So I just have to stand by, I have to stand by and watch as he sulks in anger and hatred hundreds of years old.

It hurts.

It hurts so much.

Even with this much power at my fingertips, I can't even save one man.

One man who just might need to be saved more than anyone else.

Do I even deserve to call myself human?

I look human enough, I act human enough, but I simply do not match up to the real deal.

I already am too much of a simple tool to be called a person reliably.

It would not surprise me if I simply do not qualify as human, maybe metahuman, there's just something conceptually wrong with me.

It's too late to really argue my qualifications as a man-made saint.

It's out of my hands.

There's no turning back for me now.

Maybe after all of this, I can create a world where I do not have to exist.

Maybe my precious humans can live a better life.

Sons of Man, safely protected from extradimensional threats and without my interference.